yeah so i def got livejournal and this mixed up. my livejournal sucks. at least this one is like... about my life and stuff. so time for me to rant about what is going on now

well first of let me start by saying males are evil creatures. havent they always been tho? 

Here's some tough shite. my friend. i mean i love having a friend so close. i never really had a true friend like that and so i never realized how much work goes into friendship. sheesh! i mean it takes an awful lot. lots of self sacrificing and lots of time and effort and it just kills me. it's times like this where i wish i was a loner. i mean im so sick and tired of having to live around other people. having to care about someone besides myself. having someone besides myself care about me. i dont like it. it's a very fragile state for me. i feel so pregnable. but im trying. all i ever do is try...

well it's definately been quite a while here now hasnt it. well im going to switch things up a bit. well not really i mean. im just going to write something. you know i think i also have an account on livejournal.com... herm. maybe i'll go check that out. i mean i think i liked that one i should probably keep up with these online journals you know?

Will on smartboards
Mood:  amorous
on youtube, dilboy group. all by that user. he's my good friend michael. lol. there will be many video's with Will in it. tell me he's not hot. pink hair and all.

Math and Iam
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Foolish Heart
i dont know why but he's so amazing. Math is definately like, the most magnificent guy i've ever known. there is something about him, even though he's wierd, it's so sane and comforting. i've probally never met someone like him, not even a little. but, there's the other one. i like the other one too. freggin Iam, i mean, he's hott...and tall...and...hott... it sounds shallow, which it probally is! here's this guy thats a real gem, and i adore the heck out of him but im all iffy cause some hott guy i had a crush on before i even met him! i mean...that was before i met him. before i realized that guys werent just guys and that they have feelings and emotions too, and that even though they're all assholes, there is one, really great amazing wonderous asshole and he can be all mine for the low low price of loyalty...but.............................................i cant get over Iam! errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, cursed be this thing, that maketh hearts twirl and heads whirl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why oh why can i be like, a morman or something. darn it i want them both! oh, kal. siese pish posh and choose! 

WayTooEarly
Mood:  happy

well, it's definitaly like, four in the morning. im all dressed and lip gloss on. where am i going you ask. oh, just school...i know, iknow... AT FOUR IN THE MORNING?!? well, that's the beauty of astronomy. :) im just nervous that i'll get there and noone would have been crazy enough to actually go! eh! i guess that would just mean more donuts for me, but what if mr. A doesnt even show?!?! :O  at least i'll have wally there...er...i hope! i dunno if i should show a little late or exactly on time...kind of conflicted, kinda nervous...after all, it's dark out side. thats my ONLY stomach turner!

IKnowItsTrue
Now Playing: Keep The Wolves At Bay

well, i guess it's been a while... nothing has happened you know. school starts in like, a week. the closer it gets the less excited about going back i feel.

i dont think im ready to deal with my friends yet. i love em, and i miss em, but i dont think im quite ready to deal with em. i've been tring to get over this funk i've been in for the past eight years of my life but i dont think it's working...

i feel like, emotionally speaking, i'm sick and i have no idea what to do to get better.

ILoveSurveys

Boredom Made Me Do It!

 

What Would You Do If...

Your (opposite sex) best friend confessed that they were in love with you?
Confess right back

You found yourself sexually attracted to (but don't have feelings for)  someone you consider just a friend?
ignore it

You suddenly realized that you have feelings for a friend?
wouldnt be the first or the last

You were offered a million dollars to never have any contact with the person you are in love with forever?
...money is the rooth of all evil. f*** you million dollars

Have You Ever...

Had a friend with benefits?
by benifits, what exactly do you mean?

Had a one night stand?
no

Left a restaraunt without paying?
no

Used being drunk as an excuse for having sex?
no

Ran a red light?
no

Stolen your parents car?
no

Had a bf/gf that your parents didn't approve of?
...yep

Lasts...

Person (not related to you) that you kissed?
cant right their. too revolted by them right now

Person you called?
... Ted

Thing you thought about?
this!

Person you were mad at?
my brother

Time you took a shower?
last year

Person (not related to you) that told you they love you?
...one of my friends

Gift you recieved?
cant remember

Random Thoughts...
 

What inspires you?
nature

What do you think of the person who took this survey before you?
i could kiss em

What possesed you to even bother with this survey?
im bored

Do you like scary movies?
if im with somebody...

If you were really drunk and puking, would your best friend hold your hair back for you?
wouldnt need to but if they did... i'm not sure

What do you think about the person who made this survey?
they're kool

Aren't you glad it's finally done?
a little

i LOVE these!

This or That

 

Food/Drink
McDonalds or Burger King?
McDonalds

Pepsi or Coke?
Coke

Sierra Mist or Sprite?
Sprite

Dominos or Pizza Hut?
both suck

Fridays or Ruby Tuesdays?
Ruby Tuesdays??????????????

Pancakes or waffles?
Waffles... I think!

Hamburgers or cheeseburgers?
Cheeseburgers

Meat or veggies?
...? are you kidding me!

Vanilla or chocolate?
Vanilla

Clothing
Abercrombie or Hollister?
...?!

Boxers or briefs?
Boxers

Collar: popped or regular?
regular

Jeans or skirt?
jeans

Sneakers or flip-flops?
flip flops

Music
*NYSNC or Backstreet Boys?
BACKSTREET BOYS! :)

50 Cent or 2pac?
2pac all the way

Country or rap?
...depends!

Rob Thomas or Maroon 5?
MAROON 5! :)

Goo Goo Dolls or Matchbox 20?
aye! ?????? I think Goo Goo Dolls!

Porcupine Tree or Opeth? ;)
????? Opeth has a kool name!

The Other Sex
Face or body?
face!

Chest or heinie?
um...heinie!

Hair: short or long?
long...or longish...or short

Brunette or blonde?
BRUNETTE!

Candy or flowers?
FLOWERS!

Hugs or kisses?
... i like em both...? er? ...

Friends with benefits or date?
...hehe! I guess date

Technology
MySpace or Facebook?
Facebook??????????????????

AIM or MSN?
never used MSN...yet!

TV or movie?
MOVIE!!!!!

Cell phone or iPod?
who knows!?!

Automatic or manual?
... depends on what it is...

Colors
Black or white?
Black

Red or blue?
Blue

Gold or silver?
Silver

Yellow or orange?
Orange

Pink or purple?
PINK!!!!!

Weather
Summer or Winter?
Winter

Fall or Spring?
Spring

Rain or thunderstorm?
RAIN!

Snow or rain?
SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Would you rather...
Shower or bathe?
...uh...shower

Play an instrument or sing?
play

Play ping-pong or pool?
pingpong

Be hot or cold?
cold!

Are you...
Quiet or loud?
BOTH!

Immature or immature?
...immature?

Ugly or hott?
...?

Smart or stupid?
...?

Gay or straight?
...? hehe! STRAIGHT!

Misc.
Dogs or cats?
luv em both to death

Pen or pencil?
PEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bush or Kerry?
ew, politics

Canada or Australia?
not fair!

BlahBlahBlah

jeez, im so bored nowa days. i know i havnt written because nothing interesting has happen, um lets see, ALL SUMMER! whut ever. i'm supposed to be enjoying the lesiure time, but frankly im just bored! maybe you'd stay if I... take my life...oh oh!

Mood:  down
It's August 2nd today. It seems so tedious, these days, but i guess i just have to keep going you know...